Time to find a new hobby.

So I think I have hit rock bottom with my drinking situation. Settle the fuck down I don't need AA and everything will be okay, I will still be me. I just won't be the girl that falls, or the girls that falls asleep in the shower fully dressed with the shower on, or the girl that falls into her apartment face first, or the girl who loses her wallet. Wow I am hyped to meet this girl.

Over the last months I have become even worse than usual with my "hobby". I drink to feel better about the situation especially when I am out because I need to let loose and people here are not so friendly. If I drink its easier to approach people and try to talk but once I'm shatfaced I can't even formulate logical sentences. So yeah, fuck that. I am too smart to waste it all on being an embarrassing drunk mess. I think I am ready to outgrow this crazy phase I've been cruising on for far too long. I have no self control in regular life add alcohol and I lose all logic, all intelligence, all inhibitions...everything gone.

So yeah, ciao you fucking drunk mess.